I lost my job twice this year. I had to help Mom out by getting her a car. This set me back a thousand dollars. This morning I went to go to work and my car was gone. The finance company repo'ed it. I was going to make a double payment to them next Friday. There was nothing they can do but ask that I pay 2500 dollars in 15 days or the car was going to be sold. I am going to lose the car if I dont come up with the money. I make good money. I just have trouble catching up. My job will not help in any way. If i'm not there, I dont get paid. My mother lives 100 miles away and she needs her car. Also, she wouldnt pay back the money to me that I lent her. Long story short, she gave it all to my brothers girlfriend. I dont talk to them anymore. My next objective is to find out what I am struggling like this for. Why life is so daunting and why I put myself through things like this. Id go as far to say that my car and my cats are the only thing keeping me alive.Well, now its just my cats but the car was an anchor. I do have a fat life insurance policy. So if anyone out there is willing to murder me, i'll make them my beneficiary. Seriously. I am just so tired of struggling and for what? So I can have cable and tv and a nice car? Does it get any better? Do I continue getting bad credit only so I can have more debt in order to have decent things? I dont know what else I am going to do.
